1.An Artist With A Self-Portrait Has No Imagination
I was drinking to forget their shit-talking.
I was drinking to forget the heroes that I've never found.
I was drinking to forget the wrong words that I've said.
I was drinking to hide from my own ghosts.
The word 'life' could mean
So much more than this.
Dreams of red water in a white bath tub.
Dreams of gray cold blades cutting through my skin.
I was drinking to forget the fuckers that I hate.
I was drinking to drown the thoughts up in my head.
I was drinking to keep on lying to myself.
I was drinking to pass the time.
With eyes I can trust,
You are saving me, my friend.
With empty pockets refilled,
I'm shaking hands with my ghosts.
This haunted town has a name.
Dead eyes have been refilled.
2.Where Did Our Talents Go？
We get our drugs from our pharmacists.
Are we all getting ready for the moving day？
We have all become over-worried these days.
Or maybe we're just accepting it.
A hundred different pens are telling the same story.
A hundred different sheets on a hundred different floors.
This is our last chance to fuck it up.
We noticed that the stars are just stars
And that there's just nothing more to it.
I guess we already fucked it up big time.
Who will breathe for us？
Where did our talents go？
3.Magnets
You're the person that could ruin me.
Naked and honest, we spend the day under sheets.
You're the person that is saving me.
You're lying next to me, watching over me as I sleep.
You keep me safe and you make me smile.
I found home in those arms and hope in those eyes.
We're laughing at ourselves sometimes and at our stupid jokes.
You're the only thing on my mind.
All those senseless stupid things mean so much to me.
You fill the walls up in this room.
I see your face when I close these eyes.
You mean so much to me.
With eyes like magnets you save me.
I owe you so much more than
These stupid words to this stupid song.
You close your eyes to get a cigarette kiss.
You grab my hand as I'm tripping over my own feet.
You have every right to be the one
That tells that I..m wrong.
It's those arms,
It's those eyes that keep me alive.
4.Toothpicks
No hard feelings but you just killed me.
Now finish the job and bury me.
Thirty feet down under the ground.
It's time to say goodnight.
I hope you sleep too tight.
I come and visit you in your thoughts.
It's time to say goodnight.
I hope you sleep too tight.
I broke my teeth on chewing theses words.
It..s getting hard for me to breathe now.
I can feel it filling up my lungs.
Thirty feet down under the ground.
Pretty, pretty, where's that face？
5.February Smiles
There's comfort in these words.
I'm hardly listening.
Sleep hides in a pill.
Winter kills all smiles.
White walls all around me.
It's been three months now.
I'm shaking.
I grab a pen.
I'm afraid to write.
I'm sinking.
Buy me a drink.
I'll be your friend.
A therapy for my head.
I'm hardly breathing.
How many times can you die？
A grey cloud without rain
Won't wash the pain away.
Those thoughts stole my dreams.
I'm waiting.
I'm tired.
The feeling is killing.
6.Crush
I got away with lies and other things i said
But I got more to say so please stay here today.
You know that I can't lie.
If you turn your back on me
I promise I won't call your name.
I remember days. I remember ways.
I remember times where I knew all my lines.
Where have these times gone？
It's okay if you want to fight
But please be honest and say you lied.
7.I Love Her So Much I'd Kill For Her
Miles to go before i get this right.
I typed for hours now, smoke fills my eyes.
I've lost myself in these words about
Untraveled roads and drunken smiles.
1983 has been my year.
Angels die like you and me,
That's what I learned.
I am through with this.
It hurts my eyes.
I wanna be original tonight.
So if you found the one to trust.
Save her now before it's too late.
I found someone with whom I spent
All night, so tight.
I know that I'm addicted to the one I love.
I love her more than this, more than anything.
I guess she's crazy to think I'm not.
I wanna write songs for her to see her smile.
8.Catastrophe
When cuts are deep the scars will stay.
I guess my mind's too far away.
A plastic smile is all it takes.
The feeling sticks and just might stay.
So I save the day for another catastrophe!
I guess nothing ever made much sense to me.
A few more drinks and I show you catastrophes.
If you buy these words I'll take you all down with me.
I never learned to learn from mistakes.
Faking a smile is all it takes.
I count to ten and take that pill.
Just another day I have to kill.
I guess I smile because I'm happy to live with nothingness.
I was grinning when I learned the name.
Catastrophe？
I must have seen a million.
9.Like A Deer In Headlights
Let's all be ugly tonight.
Let's be freaks.
Let's drink to the death of beauty.
Let's make a lot of noise instead of right notes.
And maybe we just feel pretty.
Sweet nausea.
Burn this place down!
It all seems so perfect.
It all feels so perfect.
It all feels just right.
I want to pass out right here.
I want to die in these clothes.
I want to smoke my lungs out.
I want to burn this place down.
I don't know exactly what I mean by that, but I mean it.
Emptiness creeps into dreams of hope. This art ends in flames.
10.Marathon
Genius is born, not paid.
Time is spent not saved.
I want to be natural.
I'm a mathematical disaster.
Sing your heart out! Make it rain.
It's a sin to kill a mockingbird.
Getting laid in the nineties
To pretend to be grown up.
Like an explosion in chemistry.
Like an F in contemporary history.
I'm still the train wreck I was back then
But on different tracks.
I was heading for nowhere and I got there.
And I'm still here.
I have this friend for years now.
We both learned from the same book, the same words.
I guess this is a story of mice and men.
11.That's One Nice Thing About Carousels, They Always Play The Same
Songs
Talk to me.
Lie to me in your sleep.
Waste your time.
Waste your days on me.
You're the main character in a stupid film I call my life.
Tell me that
This isn't what you need.
Tell me now
And I'll stop bothering you.
I love the way you smile when you tell a lie.
12.The Last Of Disco Days
I'm half awake at twelve.
I close these eyes again.
I'm half dressed at seventeen
And I still keep them closed.
I felt half-dead by the time I turned twenty-one.
I don't feel alive at the age of twenty-two.
I might feel okay at twenty three.
I got overwhelmed like an empty shell
That's waiting to get fired again.
I'm chasing dreams in the town where I grew up.
I play with grenades in these dirty streets.
A hundred drinks, a hundred smokes, a hundred perfect times.
I got a bomb for reality.
Can anyone ever count on me？
I tried to get it right on many sleepless nights.
It's an itch I cannot scratch.
It seems I wasted the last match.
13.Artschool Dropout
I wanna be a stranger today
And act so strange in my own way.
The smile I wear is nothing but fake.
I hope I sleep before I wake.
I hold my breath and count to ten,
Afraid to go to sleep again.
With shaking hands I grab a pen,
Afraid to write the same again.
And nothing's worth the pain.
Four more lines and I'll keep quiet.
I guess there's nothing left to say.
Two more lines and it doesn't feel right.
I guess that's easy for me to say.
I found sleep in a pill.
It takes my mind so far away.
I won't drink the drinks I spill.
14.Three Cheers For Happiness
I cannot stand the whiteness of this dirty bathroom anymore.
Singing to songs I didn't write makes me feel like stealing
these days.
I wish that I could still try and stop being afraid.
I hope I'll sleep safe and sound.
I guess I think too much.
So now laugh at me!
Another beer, another smoke and I start to choke.
I wish that I could write again.
You really make me smile. It has been a while.
I see your face with closed eyes again.
We all know it's not too late for me.
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